"the new normal"
is what someone wrote to me in an email today.
she was hoping that my "new normal" was going OK.
that was an interesting concept.
i had a previous normal, my life with Linda and all that entailed.
but with her death, that normal is no longer.
what i have is my "new normal," which is life without Linda,
and all that entails.
so how is my "new normal" going?
things i don't like:
having to make all the decisions.
that's a big one.
i miss having someone to bounce things off of
(off of whom to bounce things? ever the grammar police)
of course i miss the cuddling
i miss coming home to share something that happened during the day
i miss doing crossword puzzles together
listening to music, going to shows.
so yeah, i can find other people for some of these...
and i do check out major decisions with one or another.
on the other hand,
i do get up every morning
go walking with Christine
feed the cat, go to work, have a productive time usually,
make some plans but trying not to be too busy
partly because i don't want to be away from the house too much
and because i don't want to feel like i have to run away from the house and being alone (which i don't, because i like being home in the house).
the new normal includes having made it through last week.
today i rsvp'd for the wedding reception for another couple taking advantage of the laws of the state of California, this time before November in case Prop. 8 passes. it is all around.
tomorrow is another appointment with Laura at Hospice of the Valley. i think the photo i will bring is the one of Linda with her arms spread on the deck of the cruise ship in Hawaii...of course with a big smile. i wonder how many of these photos will find their way to the office.
tonight i saw some of the Democratic Convention. Ted Kennedy was wonderful.
i am thoroughly disgusted with the former Clinton delegate who is in a McCain ad, saying it is OK to vote Republican. what were her reasons for supporting Clinton? surely not for the values and Democratic principles that Clinton supports. oh my.
it's going to get warmer starting tomorrow. i need to water the tomatoes in the morning. tonight's salad had blood orange and asian pear from christine's garden. wow that was totally delicious. finishing off with strudel from xaver's birthday.
overall, a pretty good day, a day that is part of the "new normal."
