i am so relieved that November 4th is 8 days away. the endless relentless TV commercials are really getting me down.
the weekend was pretty productive. the shabbat service in the park and lunch were fun. i bailed out of the hike part way because i had told Elinor i would be in oakland by 2 pm. we worked hard, got a lot done, and earned our dinner break and took time for elinor to see europe photos. i was pretty tired on the drive home. probably not the safest drive i've done but i fiddled with the radio and temperature in the car, and made it. sunday was a trip to the temple to make sure the bus to SF got off ok and then home to laundry and then out to Petit Trianon to see the San Jose Chamber Orchestra, organized by Nath, who was driven to the venue by the ever-present Jackie. it was a wonderful program, Tchaikovsky and two other pieces, one with latin jazz ensemble with electric viola. very interesting, and the conductor is wonderful to watch as she almost launches off the podium!
looking in the closet now, it feels both the same and different. i acquired one more shelf for my shoes (!!) and by consolidating Linda's shirts on the top row, i got one more horizontal section for my shirts. lowering the rod so i can reach it more easily also gave me room for another shelf (for shoe boxes). so it's feeling like the reverse of 1999, when Linda would bring a spare suitcase filled with clothes on her trips to California. she sort of oozed into the house, a promise of the move to come, staking out territory in the closet. after Linda returned to Ohio, i would go into the closet to smell her fragrance on the clothes . so parts of it were easy, and parts of it are difficult as some of Linda'a clothes move on to new homes. while it is nice to have more room in there, i know i'd rather not have it.
today i had another session with the counselor at Hospice of the Valley. there is a group on Monday evenings for people who have lost partners, starting next week. i will try that for the 6 weeks, and take a break from the one on one's for a while, not breaking into the workday. we'll see if that works for a while. Laura said i can always come back or call.
got a call from the chiropractor to set up my quarterly tune-up. i like to do that as a preventive...catch it before anything gets too weird, and my right knee has been feeling weak recently and i've been wearing the neoprene brace some.
amazing, moving on into November already. it's definitely getting colder. i think the mid-80's are gone. i'm going to need to wear a sweater in the mornings. the passage of time, the moving on of the seasons.
tissue alert
or maybe it's just me.
it's just that the future stretches out in front of me.
and while it is full of activities and people,
it does not include Linda. and sometimes that is really hard.
