writing from Santa Monica on an old iMac with dialup modem. yeah, those things still exist.
and as i promised myself and Adam and Adam made me promise to Daniel etc etc
i went to the OCEAN THIS MORNING!!!! fabulous. wonderful smell. wonderful ozone. wonderful sounds. there was a slight drizzle but i had a hood. then later after the rain stopped, it got SO INCREDIBLY WINDY...phew. cold but more windy. so many palm fronds fell from the trees. all over sidewalks and streets. gonna need a major cleanup on monday, that's for sure.
today was a day like many other days. the year is slipping away.
breakfast, walk, nap, lunch, rest, TV, paper. Bea the yoga teacher came and when one of us is down (elinor or me) we take a class alongside. felt really nice. she is very sweet and really likes jack.
tissue alert maybe...
today is in fact december 13. 8 months have passed. that is two-thirds of a year. and i realize that there are days that pass when i don't cry. today is not one of them, however. how can it be, two-thirds of a year already? so much is still so recent. and so far away. that scares me too. not sure if i recorded here that i found linda's voice on the outgoing message on her cell phone which is now mine. that was really eerie but reassuring. note to everyone: make tapes. made videos. record sounds and sights like we didn't do. silly us. big mistake. get the history down in ways that others can read/hear/see it later. technology is available. use it. at the airport in sj i saw the acer microcomputer. that's probably what linda would have wanted to end up with. add that to the list of things i'm sorry i didn't push for between october and april.
according to the counter at the blog log-in, this is the 200th post. milestone. feels like i should celebrate or something but i'm not feeling very celebratory at the moment. linda f. made it through one year. she's always one step ahead of me. and now instead of linda, linda and deb, it will be linda, deb and deb going out to see Kinsey Sicks later this month. we all need some ridiculous hilarity, not to mention fabulous a cappella, in our lives.
good connections get reinforced. people do get better when they are ill or injured. friends stay by your side when you need them. that's the up-side. so for today, i will try to emphasize the positive and hope for clear skies tomorrow.
