i guess i'm not quite there yet
i'm looking for the balance point
between remembering and letting go
between keeping the shared experiences, the stories, the life we shared
as a present part of my self
and being able to step into the future
as the new me.
i have been told
more than once
that i will know it when it happens
finding the balance point
when it feels too hard to go on alone
i'm not there yet
when i worry that i will forget
and i don't want to
i'm not there yet
sometimes when i look at photographs
or any of the multitude of things that still connect me to Linda
and feel her love wrapped around me so tenderly
then i don't want to move forward
for fear of losing it altogether
but at least i know that out there
in the future
there is a balance point
i guess i'm not quite there yet
but i will know.
